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Vortex of Self-Destruction
12/01/2009 8:47 pm
I grew up headstrong and in total control of my life because my parents were too busy with their works and social circles that I grew up basically on my own, with a couple of nannies and maids around our house to keep me company. They were never there to help me with my homework because they hire different tutors to help me in after school. I excel in my academics and I always get high grades because I love to be in school with my friends than at home in a lonely house without my parents. I developed a lot of friendships because of the void in my life that should have been filled by my parents' love and presence. I started going out with friends and spending all my time with them because I feel that they are the family that I never had.
I carried that kind of mentality all throughout high school and it landed me in some trouble because I got involved with a bad crowd who were always doing bad things in school. Although I don't really approve of the misdemeanors we were rampantly committing, breaking school rule after every school rule, I feel trapped because they are the only family I had ever known. I started drinking and smoking and going to parties in bars and strange houses. My parents were never the wiser with how I was destroying my life because they always thought that everything was still ok because of my high grades.
My downward spiral to self-destruction increased tenfold as I got into college because of the sudden surge of a different kind of freedom, a sense of freedom from the clutches of our empty house and empty hugs of my parents. Parties became wilder and I became bolder, always trying new things and accepting challenges and dares just to fit in. Soon my grades began to drop and I was on the verge of losing my scholarship. On the brink of totally losing myself, I started to turn my life around because my education is the best thing in my life, the only thing that isn't tainted by the false facades of life. I started minimizing the wildnights I spend in clubs and I began immersing myself in books and academic ventures. Slowly my focus on my studies gained momentum and my grades got better and better. Now when I am not writing term papers for school and other academic ventures, I go out but now, I drink in moderation and I always get a good night's sleep. All those wild nights are well behind me and I hope that I have the resolve to keep it that way.
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No one is bloggin
10/07/2008 11:00 pm
Where are the clubbers? Lets start bloggin, not frogging :-)
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Hello Clubbers
09/24/2008 12:00 pm
Hello clubbers from a stranger :-)
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